Out of boredom, I random searched through youtube's recommended music videos and came across this.. another emo-fied and soul searching song..

You and me
We used to be together
Everyday together always
I really feel
That I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe
This could be the end

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts

Woah I haven't been here for a year. Too busy and tired to listen to my own thoughts. Yea I realized I have so little me-time right now. Maybe it's a good thing that I'm on leave right now without Darling..

Read a book today (haven't touched a book for almost half a year).. watched 2 movies.. hmm loving the quiet and serenity of such a life. Tomorrow gonna head out to grab costumes for DnD..and spin class.. the seemingly most efficient weight loss exercise..love it. :)

What in the world am I doing with my life right now. Sigh ok maybe I'll forget about this question in a year or two's time. When something else preoccupies me.

meetups
Last last week was maf@hc! It's been a good 4 years I think since I last stepped into school.. I didn't even know they renovated the toilets last year! I really miss hc.. feels so glad to be back in school again..:)

Rally glad to meet everyone again.. we also met beng beng who has kept a book with details of all the classes that she'd taught.. complete with our photos and a level results!! amazing!!

the first level staff room has been converted to a study area for more class benches. still can't believe there is a class 6V. omg at our time it was wad, 6c? o.O good thing our class bench was still at the same spot, or at least close to it. but there's no longer that corridor anymore. the whole floor is filled with class benches.. too many classes now.

mass dance and songs were fun! me love the hc spirit! can't believe i can still remb all the hc songs the moment they flashed the lyrics. hehe. :P Let's meet up soon! I'll try for class gathering again at end of year or next year cny hehe.. :D

i have fulfilled my goal of running a 5km run!! army half marathon fun run last last sunday. met mich who was running the 10km run! zai!! as for me.. eh actually i half ran and half walked along the way.. but i really did manage to complete it!! yay so proud of myself *pats myself on the back* next goal: stan chart 10km run. wish me luck!

work
Attrition rate of my team is really high. so high that the whole team has basically changed hands within the last few months that i've joined the team. even the team head has changed. last week was J's farewell. come december, I should be rotating out, and L's contract would have ended and she would be going on permanent mat leave. It's really weird to see everyone leaving. But I've been through the worst, ever since my first mgr left for Germany. Sigh working has made me feel more and more numb to my environment. The only thing that is making me hang on is the work that I'm doing now, which remarkably I enjoy way more than my previous role, even though I do complain about it. I like to make noise to destress haha. :P (bf thinks I'm crazy.. enjoying being overworked and stressed everyday).

speaking of work.. I have this feeling that the grads positions are endangered as time pass and permanent placement is approaching next year. mgr keeps saying she is desperate and trying hard to find ways to retain me in the team.. as if that's the only way I can stay with the company. *sigh* sounds as if there's no permanent positions available for us.. *shakes head in despair* ohwells.

slack
and so my life now revolves around sims3, glee and amazing race. escapism ever since restaurant city died on me. sian. but sims3 is equally or even more addictive. good thing is that i don't have to feel forced to play it everyday, but once i start any time, i can't stop. =X i have obsessive perfectionist compulsion and have to master all skills before making my sims age. oops.

i love glee season 2!! the new guy is quite cute and he sings well. but charice sings even better omg. and amazing race!! i miss dear ol' stone henge!! and dear ol' london as well! when can i go back? :(

oops. overdosage of slacking. work + slack = -sleep. ok i better sleep now. clear my sleep debt. luckily i didn't dare to embark on sims3 tonight. night night!

Archived by 2009 entries, and realized that I only penned down 4 entries within the past 8 months in 2010. omg this blog has seriously been neglected. Oops.

HC band gathering on tuesday. 5 years since i last met most of the people there. Funny enough i was at the mrt station about to board the train home when michelle's reminder sms came through. Fate? I'm not sure. Sat at the train station hesitating and debating for a good 10 minutes before making the decision. Why am I still so indecisive over such stuff? I should have grown out of it.

Anyway, thanks to michelle, and all the people present, it wasn't too bad. The ice breaker was a casual conversation. And every where I went, I was cautious about having someone else around. Erps yea I was still very cautious. Other than that, it was really loads and loads of catch ups with everyone. Amazed by the turnout, thanks chun yang for organizing. :)

Today was "view-darling's-tv-cum-computer" day! Wahaha.. really shiok to have a tv as your monitor. SC2 was an eye opener, though it was sad that the first battle I saw ended in defeat. Still, really cool to be finally able to see those movies on a large screen. And wii! It's an entertainment system all in one! Wish I had something like that at home too.. :(

And.. as usual received HDB's rejection letter. Sigh yet again. No more chance liao. Time to look at ECs and second-hands. But that will be a few more years to come ba. I still don't know how EC works. I only hear the bid for land tender, but there's no news on when people can start buying the property. Do we only start buying when they finished building the EC? So it's kind of different from BTO?

I just remembered that friday was big day out. How blur can I be. Gosh. Now it clashes with pee club outing!! And I still fear for what I will be wearing on friday. Involuntarily got chosen to be a mascot. Dotdot. Tomorrow it shall be decided.

Okies time to sleep. Night night!

With the new rotation came new opportunities to learn, new colleagues (to add, friendlier) around willing to help each other, and above all a new sense of job satisfaction. I still strongly believe in the fact that doing something meaningful and adding value to the company makes you happier in your job. Be it something as simple as compiling a powerpoint presentation for someone to something as time consuming as investigation work. Now that I can safely say that everything that I am doing now is what I would say necessary, I feel much happier with my job, and with it I can feel my depression lifting.

Darling thinks I'm crazy, I actually enjoy putting in the extra hours at night to complete my job. Ohwells.

Ok updates.

Met mug club on friday. Brought them to nantsuttei for dinner.. still loving the soup. =D We then hanged out at coffee club. Service was amazingly bad. Like we just headed into the cafe without anyone directing us to a table. We then sat down for at least a good hour. Even by the time meishi came, there was no one who walked past us to take our orders. And when our drinks came, the camomile tea I ordered already had a tea bag inside and I had a strainer with my tea cup. And then we realized our cup was swapped when tea leaves started sprouting out through meishi's teapot. LOL.

Still, it was a nice gathering. Good company for a nice friday night. Envy kj and eunice to the max with their travelling tales. I wanna head back to europe soon! Europe, can u hear me??

Met up with darling's colleagues on sat for his farewell bbq session. Good food, nice people. Jamie's condo was incredibly big, it's almost like an estate on its own. And the unobstructed view of town was beautiful. :)

Oh darling just bought a new desktop. Cost crazy amount of dollars. But it has all the good stuff packed in.. and he bought a 32" LED tv as a monitor! Cool stuff. Can't wait to play wii next time at his place. =P

Exciting plans next week. Am going to take day off on wednesday cos I calculated that I couldn't clear finish all my leave given the amount of time left in the year, so might as well. Heading over to see darling's new comp hee. Then friday is meeting up with pee club.

And tuesday. sigh should i go.. I dunno what to expect.

Started organising for MAF cos feeling guilty about CNY's failed gathering. Cross fingers that people will turn up!